"Something's happening, go prepare!"
I've realised something today.
Nervousness and inevitability are intrinsically linked. Nervousness starts as soon as you learn of a future happening of something you severely dislike and are very afraid to participate with; nervousness starts building from that moment onward, and gets gradually worse and worse. However, as soon as you've set in motion the entire process of going to and arriving at this happening, this event, albeit via a four minute walk or a ninety minute busdrive, this level of nervousness tends to collapse. In other words, as soon as this event becomes inevitable, and there is nothing you can do to prevent this event from taking place, the nervousness becomes much, much less.
Let me give a factual example. I had a job-interview today (well, sort of; it was for an internship). Now, I'm not very good at handling myself verbally, for reasons stated earlier on this blog (the written word is my primary and favourite means of expresing myself). As you can imagine, I was rather nervous about it all week. However, I found that, as soon as I found a seat on the bus, the nervousness considerably subsided. This odd little sensation occurs to me every now and again, and today I started thinking about it (that's what being bored on a ninety minute busdrive will do to a person), and it were these contemplations that prompted me to write this piece.
All this pondering has led me to a conclusion you ('you' as in mankind in its entirety, not you specifically) will have reached decades if not centuries ago; nervousness serves a purpose. It's not just installed into the human mind in order to bug the hell out of us and make us nauseous all the time; it's a kind of elaborate warning system, like a taperecorder constantly playing one single, short message: "Something's gonna happen, go prepare!". So you do, you prepare. And as soon as the event becomes inevitable, and preparations for it nigh on impossible, this warning system will cease to have purpose; it will quietly die down.
The human mind never ceases to amazes me.
Cheers
ps: The interview went fine, by the way - thanks for asking.
Nervousness and inevitability are intrinsically linked. Nervousness starts as soon as you learn of a future happening of something you severely dislike and are very afraid to participate with; nervousness starts building from that moment onward, and gets gradually worse and worse. However, as soon as you've set in motion the entire process of going to and arriving at this happening, this event, albeit via a four minute walk or a ninety minute busdrive, this level of nervousness tends to collapse. In other words, as soon as this event becomes inevitable, and there is nothing you can do to prevent this event from taking place, the nervousness becomes much, much less.
Let me give a factual example. I had a job-interview today (well, sort of; it was for an internship). Now, I'm not very good at handling myself verbally, for reasons stated earlier on this blog (the written word is my primary and favourite means of expresing myself). As you can imagine, I was rather nervous about it all week. However, I found that, as soon as I found a seat on the bus, the nervousness considerably subsided. This odd little sensation occurs to me every now and again, and today I started thinking about it (that's what being bored on a ninety minute busdrive will do to a person), and it were these contemplations that prompted me to write this piece.
All this pondering has led me to a conclusion you ('you' as in mankind in its entirety, not you specifically) will have reached decades if not centuries ago; nervousness serves a purpose. It's not just installed into the human mind in order to bug the hell out of us and make us nauseous all the time; it's a kind of elaborate warning system, like a taperecorder constantly playing one single, short message: "Something's gonna happen, go prepare!". So you do, you prepare. And as soon as the event becomes inevitable, and preparations for it nigh on impossible, this warning system will cease to have purpose; it will quietly die down.
The human mind never ceases to amazes me.
Cheers
ps: The interview went fine, by the way - thanks for asking.
2 Comments:
That was a plenary analysis! Thanks for sharing your revelation. Congratulations on the interview going well!
I need to ask, since the trip to the interview was so lengthy, does this mean if you get the internship you'll suffer a 90 min. bus ride on a regular basis?
Yup. And I have to get back home again at the end of the day.
Ah well, as long as I got my books and my music, I'll be fine.
Cheers
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